One Step Forward, Two Steps Back!

I'm certain many people feel the whole "one step forward, two steps back" scenario every now and then. Unfortunately, I think that's my life story!

So where am I in the grand scheme of things....

One Step Forward:

I decided I want to step up this blogging thing and really take an active role rather than the occasional post....so as part of the "making moves" movement, my first plan of action is to 1. post more and 2. follow other blogs more....Part inspiration/part fun! And I've come across a few good ones I'll be happy to share.

Two Steps Back:

The condo hunt is pretty much at a halt. I'm being stubborn right now because there's only been one place that I felt suitable for my life (Ahhh the gated community on a golf course...oh yea I don't golf but who cares) and of course they don't want to negotiate, which does not help my situation since I did not like anything else, especially the other locations. So yes, I'm stomping my foot and pouting a bit, but I won't settle! I've settled on too many things in my past and I'm not going there again. So what's a girl to do, but continue with my plan.....on a good note, at least I'm still saving. 

One Step Forward:

I can't forget the deal I made with myself. If I can't find the perfect place to live, then I was opening my job search avenues...which I am proud to say I did! I think I've applied for 4 jobs that I really felt interested in...one was in California, one in Boston, one in Virginia and one in New York. And the one in NY was forwarded by a friend. And being the proactive job hunter that I am, I even reached out to a FB friend who happens to be in HR somewhere out in the midwest to critique my resume.  While I'm waiting for everything to fall into place, I'm taking steps with my own job and to learn different things and create new responsibilities to make my job more interesting.

Two Steps Back:

No one responded back to me, not even my FB friend who agreed to critique my resume....hmmm you think it's that bad?????

One Step Forward/Two Steps Back:

In the romance department...I'm not sure if I should count this as One Step Forward OR Two Steps Back but my San Diego guy from New Years Eve is just not on the ball. I gave him a little leeway because of the demands of his job, but really when does a girl draw the line and gain some self respect.....I drew my line yesterday. It's hard enough to try to get something going when the two parties are living in opposite sides of the country. But when one of those parties claims he's sorry, he's just been so busy with work, that he didn't have a chance to call me. I accepted it briefly...and then common sense kicked in. 

At the end of the day, you make time for what you want to make time for in life. You may be busy, but there is always 1 minute to just say hi...can't talk but I'm thinking of you. And it's okay I'm not a priority to him....We're not in a relationship, I don't expect to be number one and I'm going out and meeting others, but there's principle here. And the principle is don't waste my time and expect me to go out of my way when your back in town next month. Actually the reality of it, is what did I really expect anyway???? How would this have worked? Even if I lived in San Diego, it's obvious that work or some other excuse would have come up. Maybe I was just being a hopeless romantic since I met him in Times Square on NYE....what girl wouldn't think of the possibility. Well this girl snapped out of Cinderella mode and deleted his number and all his texts from my phone. (Let's face it, ifI didn't, there would have been a slight chance of drunk dialing/texting). So se la vie, ciao, a rive derci San Diego. I have to close this door completely so that another may open. And even though that dreaded Valentine's Day is approaching, I will continue to move forward.

One Step Forward/Two Steps Back:

So as far as my health/diet go, I'm not sure about this either. This can count as both. Unfortunately my gym isn't offering personal training sessions at the discounted price I originally bought them for, so my ridiculous self decided to take a stand and join another gym completely. This doesn't necessary help me in anyway, but I wanted a change of scenery anyway. This new gym offers group classes as part of the membership, and even though I have two left feet, I felt good about making this move. I shouldn't have to depend on one person to help me (even though my trainer was excellent, I depended on him only and never took the initiative to do any of his workouts on my own). Here's the downfall...no matter what workout I do, if I don't get my diet under control I'm screwed...I have PMS cravings that take over my mind and body that nobody can stop....Chocolate & Carbs are my weakness and I give into them every time....Add the beers and delish food from Superbowl and I'm back to square one from everything I lost....ugh!!!! And this weekly weighing in is not fun...Back to the grind again.....

....and off to make more moves.....